z’s bubbles 2

I was not meant for a job… I was meant for freedom without a job. Seriously…

Today was good. Everybody slept in and we were all hussling for/to church Nothing out of the ordinary happened there. As usual, Liam fell asleep on me at some point in time I’ll miss that when he starts nursery…

Though one thing was special about today, it was our first social activity in years: we were invited to a friend’s house for dinner.

And it was fun, and nice to get to meet them. And it was humbling… It pointed out that yes, there are things I don’t do right, but at least I have a decent relationship with my wife!

Funny… I just read through a few entries from July last year, and it was just as busy/messy at work July 28th 2004 as it is here today… go figure…

Oh goodness things have been rambunctious! Everybory, including Liam, seems a tad on edge, a lot of hairy situations arose, work is utterly frustrating and most people seem to have severe cases of the HUB disease!

Like what’s up with big S asking me every single week “I wonder what they’ll do with us when the new supervisor gets here?” since there’s one too many of us. How should I know? Does it really matter? Is there anything we can do about it right now? Then shut up! Sheesh.

Or with our mechanics? Both of them! One taking a combined total of 6 days to bloody flush a radiator, not even touching the front axels or the exhaust system, though he got a written list of items to do both times! Or the other one recomending a $250 cooling fan replacement! Like I want to spend that kind of money. if we can get by with doing it ourselves than tell me so!

Or with the bank? Why do we have to wait for 3 weeks on a pre-approval letter from them just to find 3 days before we have to renew or cancel our lease that they hadn’t even pulled a credit report for us yet? And not only that, the information they were missing was my SSN, address and birthdate, which I’m pretty sure we gave him last time we talked!

Duh…

Work was nuts today. Of course it didn’t help to have the whole database-down issue at shift start… I took my lunch at 3:30pm for crying out loud.

And something strange: my car overheats with coolant and both fans running and cruising at 60mph. Roo’s car manages to stay below half with the cooling fan broken, the condenser fan working and cruising at 45mph.

Is a Honda that much better designed than a Mazda?

Goodness this weekend seems weird in retrospective.

I think most of it was weird because Sunday, Roo was “gone” reading. And Monday, Tuesday, I was.
And once again it showed me why I usually don’t read novels: because after that I feel like my life is utterly eventless and lonely. I mean, I do have the most wonderful little family in the world with me, but it’s not like we have any (local) friends to do things with.

So I had this sinking feeling as I went through the end of the HP book last night, which this morning had grown into a full blown I-don’t-wanna-go-mommy attitude, which in turn was proven right when I was greeted with the wonderful news that nothing was working and it wouldn’t until probably noon.

Oh joy.

Can I go home now?

And please don’t let me read novels again.

Goodness.. once again, there is nothing here to do aside from scraping together rather pointless numbers.

So how does one go about not taking oneself too seriousy?

A few weeks ago, Roo made me do an “I feel” exercise. Here’s what I came up with. Granted, it was not a very up-beat day…

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Boy, was I having a bad day!

Call me biased, intolerant or whatever but what is wrong with people? Two friends of mine in a matter of two weeks both independently (and no, they don’t know each other) announce that they will be getting a divorce or at least very closely considering one. I mean yes from what they told me it’s all their husband’s fault, but it seems hard to believe. In a relationship, as in making children, as in most car accidents (I said most, not all), both parties had somewhat a part of it.

It just seems the easy way out. You’ve only been married two years or less, in one case even had a child after you got married, and you’ve been “fighting” f0r less than 6 months and all the sudden you want to end it all because he is just so verbally abusive and completely not understanding of your needs???

It’s hard to believe… Makes me think that someone was overly eager to say “I do” to “you promise to love an honour him in good times as in bad“… But I guess it’s easier to blame it all on him instead of facing the truth that they are to blame too, at least partially.

I chewed someone out today. At least by my standards. He wants to be a “lead” and doesn’t understand what out operations are???? Goodness. Plus I am so tired of people taking extended lunches and leaving early! Bunch of dimwits thinking they can just hang out for 12 hours while others bust their tail…