Sometimes this really strong feeling of loneliness comes over me. I guess that is one’s lot in life when one is married to a choleric (D). The time I don’t spend at work, belongs to her and most decisions are and will be made by her. And if it’s not her, they will be made by other cholerics in my life.
Oh fun.
Enough.
Let’s play hardball…
Whoa, what a whirlwind!
Looking back on what happened in the last 5 months as far as the relationships in our lives are concerned is quite impressive. But what is even more impressive is all that came about in the last three weeks.
The good first…
Both Ruth and I have built a very VERY good friendship with Lynn. She’s been such a source of strength through these changes. She’s truly been an angel and even though she keeps saying that we are doing more for her than she is for us, it sure doesn’t feel like that.
Then the bad…
From March 2007 until October 2008, we had built (well, we thought we had anyway) a solid friendship with Willie. He even became a mentor to us in every area of our lives (save maybe religion…). However, after our separation from QuickWay, and his increasing inability to produce more money than he was spending, the relationship went stagnant. Well, I should say silent. He seldom returned our calls and when he did, he rarely had good advice for us.
During that time, every Tuesday night he reminded us to go out and share TEAM’s leadership development program with new people, yet he did not lead by example. So we (all of the team) didn’t do anything, save a few superhuman heroes (Lynn…). After all, it was a drastic change from what we did before and I was just too chicken, honestly…
Then the announcement came about Monavie. And then there was hope and excitement. Yes, at first it was subdued and people were afraid to get their hopes up. Then the first numbers dwindled in and the money was so much better than what we’ve been working with since 1999 (it’s so hard to believe it’s been that long!!!).
However at the same time some people thought it to be a good time to do squirly things (and try to upset the order of things). And the Willie we knew and loved disappeared. All of the sudden we heard that he spent hours on the phone with other people, while we left waiting on the sidelines. Not only that, as we got more and more exacerbated by his seemingly erratic behavior, murmurs of him doing the same squirly things as those from whom we were trying to separate us from (the tripple Ts) were heard. And then this last week happened. We met almost every other night. Several times people ended up in tears because of the emotional “hurt” by the tripple Ts which culminated in the ueber-T leaving a meeting completely infuriated followed shortly by Kristal wailing “Can we just all move on?!” Hello??? What have we been doing? You guys are the ones constantly in tears or upset…
And then Willie had the gall to call Ruth self-centered and egotistical followed by a request for him to mentor us?? Do we look like we can be switched on/off as he pleases? No f***ing way!
He abandoned us, lied to us, yelled at our friends, blew their people out and wants us to act like nothing happened???
Sorry pal, this train’s moving on!
Why is it that decent male role models are ever so hard to find?